Used To

"'Used to'. There are no sadder words in any language." I hope I never have to say that I used to be a writer. I don't know if I could look back on my life, on something that I gave so much to, and think of it only in the past tense. I think I have to be writing as long as I'm capable.

It's weird to think of it like that, because that means I'll theoretically be writing for the next 60 years. Added all up, I'll have a lot of words that I've put together.

The great part is, with my New Years Resolution, I can actually see it happening. Writing every day isn't much of a challenge anymore. Except for the days that it is. But other than that, it's really not. I just know that it's possible, so even on the days that it's hard, it isn't really that hard.

But doing that for another 60 years? It doesn't seem possible. I'll obviously get carpal tunnel. And probably bad arthritis. I'm sure I'll reach a point where I'll just have to dictate all of my words to someone else. And I can't really say things as well as I can write them, so I'll have to write them down before I dictate them which won't make any sense at all.

All of that to say, getting old is going to be really weird.