Hopefully this thing's still on. Hopefully the people who decided to subscribe to email updates when I post (hey, you can do that too!) haven't unsubscribed when I wasn't paying attention. It's not like I was spamming their inbox.
I haven't blogged for a few reasons. The first reason, and the easiest to talk through, is that I've just been busy writing other things. January through October last year, I wrote a very bad draft of a very bad novel. Really, don't try to talk me out of this. It wasn't "probably great." It's bad. I'm fine with it. I tried my hand at my first screenplay in a while too. I still think there's an idea there, even if I don't quite have it yet.
This year, I'm determined to write a good novel. It's probably not the best sign that I threw away 10,000 words the other day to start almost completely from scratch. When you know the problems with your story run as deep as these did, though, it's hard to do anything else. I'll pull anything back from the 10,000 that I can salvage.
The other reason I haven't blogged in a while, though, is a little more complicated. I've had ideas for posts pop into my head from time to time. Monday, in the shower, I had an idea come so nearly fully-formed that I nearly stopped getting ready for work so I could get it all down.
Out of the shower though, other thoughts came to me. Like how it would make certain people feel. The post wasn't particularly aimed at anyone specific in my mind, but I could think of people who might think the fingers were pointed at them.
I don't like confrontation.
I used to be willing to write very thinly veiled posts about people close to me, then not make eye contact for a while if they realized it was about them. I don't feel that way anymore. I'm honestly not sure if that's better worse.
On the one hand, it's good that I'm not passive-aggressively hurling things at people. On the other, I've seemingly lost my ability to speak up about things I find important.
Whatever happens, Mikayla has told me I should write here more, and I'm inclined to listen to her. She's really smart.