I've been doing this thing this week where I wake up at 5:30am and write. It's a really productive time and I'm really happy with the decision, but it has a downside. Namely, that I'm so tired that I can barely make a rational decision sometimes. Here's the reason I'm telling you this: I missed yesterday's blog post (though you won't be able to tell this because I'm going to back date this one) because on the morning when I could've written it, I didn't want to. I wanted to work on the script I'm currently writing. I made a judgment call, and based on the fact that I have a schedule set up for these things, it wasn't the greatest one.
I don't know why I do such things. How I can be simultaneously proactive and destructive all at once. That's weird. If I'm improving this one area of my life, they should all just improve automatically for me so I don't have to focus too much energy on them, right?
Well, anyway, here's my default "let's talk about the fact I missed a blog post as some weird form of apology for missing a blog post." That's not interesting to anyone other than me, but I thought the world should know it's not because I'm not writing. It's because I am.
And also, you need to know that I'm willingly choosing to get up at 5:30am, so clearly I'm losing control of my facilities. Miss me when I'm gone.